I was at home today before going out to approach (or not), and I didn’t feel good. As if to say, “It’s not happening today. I shouldn’t go out.”
I have to remind myself of this a million times over, and I still forget:
What I imagine will happen, and how I feel about what I imagine, have little or nothing to do with the reality of what will happen.
I went out. I didn’t approach. But reminding myself of this is important, because it’s the first step in actually taking a step towards that experience, rather than staying when I am due to expectation.
And maybe, in time, the simple repetition of this mantra — “Expectation is not experience” — might help me overcome the resistance I’m feeling right now.